Entry 175:May 31, 2012

And yet another day where I have slept in past noon time.

I’m super sick of this…

But what weird thing to wake up to. 

So my mom usually bothers me to wake up every day she has off. But today was different. She only bothered me once and then gave up. She left me to wake up by myself at 2 o clock.

It was strange of her, but it also gets more strange. 

So I wake up at 2, and I see my mom walk up the stairs. She doesn’t say anything to me or doesn’t even acknowledge me even though we locked eyes. So I go into her room and I wave and say hello, but she seemed kinda…nonchalant?

From there, I wondered if her and my dad had gotten into a fight.

So I go downstairs and  I see that the kitchen is full of groceries that weren’t put away. Since I haven’t really done anything all day, I thought might as well clean it up. But then I noticed that the cold products that were bought were completely warm or defrosted while I was handling them.

So my thoughts is: they definitely fought today. 

So now, my dad is downstairs, doesn’t really say much to me. My mom is in her room passed out on the bed. And I’m basically writing this down because I have nothing better to do.

I wonder if we’re all gonna have an awkward dinner tonight? 

Entry 174: May 30, 2012

Alright, I hate my self even more now. Why? 

I keep sleeping really late and I wake up super late as well. Like the fuck. Why can’t my body be fucking normal. 

Like, I waste my whole day just sleeping and I waste my whole night being awake when I should be asleep. But, no, my body doesn’t want to sleep at all when it’s night time. 

FUCK! 

This summer is gonna really suck if I don’t get a good sleeping rhythm back together. Then again, when did I have a normal sleeping rhythm during the past two years? 

Entry 173: May 29, 2012

Although I always keep saying to myself that life is good and fine because nothing dramatic is happening, I’m honestly sad that it’s just fine.

It’s like my life currently has no substance at all.

What have I done with my life so far in these past few months? I just stay at home, work, internet, and sleep like 13 hours a day. What kind of life is this?

I just feel super lame. I don’t like to drink, I don’t like to smoke weed, and I’m not all into parties, or going down the shore or somewhere fun in which I don’t have enough money to pay for. So what’s left of my young life?

Being a homebody: that’s it. 

For now, life is fine, but hopefully life will get a little more interesting as I get older. Maybe I’ll like going to parties and drinking and smoking weed later in life. Who knows? But right now, I’m not even the slightest bit interested.

<End of super lame post here> 

Entry 172: May 28, 2012

So what to talk about? It’s been a while hasn’t it! 

Well, I guess I’ll just talk about work because that’s always a lot to talk about for me….because I’m super lame and really like the people at my job.

We just hired about 9 new people and 2 of them being my cousin and his girlfriend.

Who dah thunk it??

As for the others, they seem really nice and I can’t help but see that they are nice for now. They’re all super young too for some reason.

And then, we have the new manager.

I swear, I think I fell in love or something because he has quite the cute looks.

Anything else? 

Nah, life is pretty stable right now. 

Nothing traumatic like when I first started writing this. Thank the Lord. 

How should I end this though??

Meh!~ 

Entry 171: May 23, 2012

So after the past month, I’ve had my picture taken multiple times and I have come to a conclusion: Damn nigga, you gained so much fucking weight. 

I swear, each and every picture I’m in, I feel like it’s super unflattering because my body is so freaking huge!

It’s time to lose the weight.

You did it before: you just gotta put your mind to it like you did the last time.

Too  bad eating is just so tasty. 

Entry 170: May 19, 2012

So it’s been a long day, but I feel like this is something worth writing about since I haven’t really written any interesting memories on this for like….ever.

So where am I right now? Well, I have currently been on the road with my family for a spur of the moment vacation that my mom and dad decided. At first, I was kinda reluctant, but now, I’m really glad this is happening. Let’s just talk about today.

So today, we started out in Alexandria Bay, NY at the Capt Resort by the water. I swear, our hotel had the most wonderful view. Outside our window, we had a clear shot of the floating castle island, also known as Boldt Castle. 

So of course, we had to check it out.

I swear, that was the most refreshing and unexpectedly fun thing to have ever happened to me. The castle was fucking majestic. I swear, I didn’t want to leave at all. The architecture really got me this time. The man who built it wanted to present this castle to his wife, but sadly, she died before it was completed. But there were so many hearts in the design dedicated to her; it’s such a shame she never got to see it.

But I think the most striking memory of this trip was when my mother and I were walking a long the pathway lined with tulips.

So me being so into the castle, I kept rambling about how much it would mean to me if I was rich and I would by a castle for myself. But then my mom abruptly said,

“When you have a husband, just ask him to buy one for you if he’s rich.”

Of course, I showed no signs of being phased on the outside, but honestly, I was completely shocked. It really seems like the parental units are coming to terms with my sexuality and even my brother. They really do love us no matter what..

I’m really blessed.

Anyways, let’s get back on track. We came back to the main land and proceeded to cross the border to Ottowa, Canada. We finally arrived and my mother, father and I decided to just look around the area. 

This place is so freaking clean and more beautiful than New York City.

I swear, I would live in this city if I were to pick a city to live in. But the most beautiful part of this area has to be the Parliament light show that I saw just a few hours ago. At the Parliament here in Ottawa, they used the building as a backdrop for a film that was spectacular and amazingly digitally well done. Every moment, I couldn’t help but constantly compliment all the amazing 3D Graphic Designs and historical content of this light/projection show.

Anyways, that was my day. I feel like I need to wake up early because tomorrow is gonna be another long day.

PS: I am so excited for Anime Next. Caryn just got me VIP tickets to the concert. God, I’m so lucky to have her as a friend. 

Entry 169: May 12, 2012

So I got my hair did and now it’s freaking chemical straightened so that it lasts like 2-3 months. However, I can’t wash it till Monday so that the chemicals can set into my hair. 

Anyways, this Mother’s day is gonna be the most fabulous mothers day ever. Why is that? I freaking got my mom this beautiful watch from Fossil in Rose Gold. I feel like if I were a lady, I would want a watch in Rose Gold.

I swear, I passed the counter once and I knew that I wanted to get this watch for my mom. But I wanted to make sure look around other venues to see if something else caught my eye. In the end, I went with my gut and went back to the first counter that I went to in the beginning. Like I said, it’s in Rose Gold and it has nice little diamond sparkly things surrounding the rim of the watch. 

I really hope she likes it! :D 

Entry 168: May 7, 2012

Alright! Today is the day! The day you’ve been waiting for! Last day of finals! (for me at least)

So it’s like 4:30 in the freaking morning and I just had enough of studying. I’m just gonna study a little more later today and then I’ll just let God do the rest. It’s tough that I have three in a row, but I mean hey:

At least I’m basically almost done.

Entry167:  May 3, 2012

So I may look like this now, but I still have to write a paper for my Psychology class.

It shouldn’t be hard, but you know me. I’m too lazy to actually start it.

Now time to watch this movie for class.

Entry 166: May 2, 2012

Grr! I’m here writing right now because I really don’t want to finish this paper.

I mean, it’s almost done. I already finished all the hard parts to it, it’s just I’m not in the mood to finish writing it. I got a paragraph.

But I know I should finish it now because this weekend is gonna be super hectic.

Tomorrow, I have to write a paper on a movie which shouldn’t be hard. But I still need to watch the movie and find a scholarly journal to go with it.

After that, it’s gonna be Avengers weekend and that sure will tire me out.

Sunday is dedicated to studying for my CMPT 109 final and my GEOS 125 final. 

Then Monday is my hell day with 3 finals back to back.

GOD DAMMIT! I’m almost home free from this dreaded 2nd year!

Oh that’s right!!?!?!?

After my last final I will be in college for 2 years!?

Time sure does fly huh?